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I am suffering from major writer's block this summer. I'm not terribly worried - I'm young. I will write something, eventually.

Or maybe it's just that I'm more interested in living than writing. If I'm going to write, I need to experience life to the fullest, the full range of emotion, gain new experiences. With going away to college next year, new experiences are all over. I want to be there for them. My writing wil only improve, and maybe, just maybe, I'll have the guts to take on something contemporary, versus historical fantasy.

I may not be writing, but I am reading quite a lot. After all ...

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS IS COMING!! But until that comes out/after I've read that, here's the list ...

Chocolat - Joanne Harris
The Last Witchfinder - James Morrow
Good Omens - Neil Gaiman and Terri Pratchett
Middlesex - Jeffrey Eugenides
The Dress Lodger - Sheri Holman
The Things They Carried - Tim O'Brien (for school)
Jarhead - Anthony Swofford
Fragile Things - Neil Gaiman
The Child of the Holy Grail - Rosalind Miles
Son of a Witch - Gregory Maguire
Lost - Gregory Maguire
The Queen's Fool - Phillippa Gregory
The Mysteries - Lisa Tuttle
The Bone People - Keri Hulme
Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
The Eyre Affair - Jasper Fforde

I think that's all I'll be able to read for the rest of the year, otherwise I would add more to the list, but ... whatever. I know that once I go away to school, my reading for pleasure will be very difficult because I'll be reading a lot for my classes. I'm thinking I'll be able to keep up with a book of short stories in college, but I might not want to tackle a serious novel. And I have to finish The Things They Carried before going off to school - it's required freshman reading.

That's a pretty good list for now - and I'm off to read some more of Chocolat!
 
 
 
 
 
 
It has been an absolute *age* since I posted here, but my life has kind of exploded back into fandom, so I figure I should really make a post about it.

I've currently got two projects going (aside from "Seas of Green," which I abandoned for original fic), and they are both (hopefully) going to be finished by the end of this summer.

The first project is for the potent_serpent community, and is in response to the Deathly Hallows challenge. The due date for this one is July 5th, and I haven't started writing yet, so I'm going to have to really get a move on with this project. It's a Harry/Blaise/Draco thing, and I'm really excited about it. Hopefully the plot bunny won't evolve into a veritable plot monster, which would be very, very tragic. I'll post it as I'm going, it's probably going to be broken down into chapters. I had just wanted to do one long thing, but I don't think that will really work for this fic. And besides, chapters are manageable.

The second fic project I've got going on is really, really exciting. I'm sort of collaborating with lady_rhian, who is a fabulous writer and a great friend of mine. The thing is, I don't normally write with other people because I feel too restricted. But we're not writing the same fic. We're just writing within the same fic universe using different central pairings. Mine is Harry/Draco, hers is Hermione/Severus. I haven't got a start on it yet, but I've been hanging with her today, and I think I know where to begin. It's just beginning that's getting to me.

My original novel is currently at a standstill. I haven't been able to write for pleasure for so long, that I think I've kind of forgotten where I'm going with it. So I've got to work that out. This is kind of frustrating, because it's the only project I'm working on right now that could possibly be published, but it's just not happening. Oh well. I think I haven't been in the mindset of it - I'll beat it into submission someday. Preferably after I've finished the Harry/Blaise/Draco story, because that one's got a deadline.

But now I've got to head out - I'm still hanging with lady_rhian at Panera, so I should get going. But I am alive, and kicking, and have been thrown back into the world of HP fanfic! W00t!
 
 
 
 
 
 
I spent pretty much all of today editing my work for the Houk Writing Scholarship. I finally finished that short story, edited it, and I think it might be in its final format. I had to cut out a major reference to marijuana - that might not be so good for a scholarship committee to look at. But other than that, it's pretty much intact from its original form. I might post it later for some con/crit.

I also spent a lot of time editing my research paper on Transcendentalism. I found a ton of places where I should have put some citations in, but just ... didn't, for some reason. And my conclusion is much better now. So that's a good thing.

I still need to type up some poetry and the very beginning of A November's Tale for them. I'm not sure how much editing those will take.

But yes. I feel accomplished. This is the most writing I've done in a long time. And ... I've never felt this awesomely peaceful feeling of having just finished something. I haven't actually finished a story I've written for funsies in a few years at least. So I'm feeling rather proud of myself. XD

And now ... to reward myself. With chocolate.
 
 
 
 
 
 

... and these are just too delicious to keep all to myself.

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I saw Stranger Than Fiction last night and highly recommend it. Very good, though if you can't handle extremely funky, bittersweet humor, you might not like it. Writer's dream movie, though. Probably the best new movie I've seen since V for Vendetta. Everyone who writes should see this movie ...
 
 
 
 
 
 
I spent most of yesterday just bumming around the house. My parents were gone for quite a long time, so I was home alone a lot. 

Finished the first book in the Guenevere trilogy and started the second. Watched The Nightmare Before Christmas and Pride & Prejudice, and finished reading the opening essay at the beginning of my copy of the book. 


Yeah. I need to go for a walk to get the creative juices flowing.
 
 
 
 
 
 
So I haven't written anything in forever. Forever. It makes me very sad indeed, especially because I have this kickass idea for a short story. It would be along the same length as "Stuck," and it would be original. So awesome! Just wish that I could have some time to write it.

And have some time to write "Seas of Green." It's so hard to stay focussed on that when I have these long periods of time when I'm not able to write at all. The last I actually wrote was ... way back in August. And I have some good progress made. I'm about halfway through right now, meaning it will probably only be about sixteen chapters long, give or take a few. My busy season is just about to come to a close, so I can count on having more time to write relatively soon. "Relatively" being within the next two weeks. This weekend I've got two competitions for marching band, the next weekend is state, and after that I should be ready to dedicate more time to writing.

But the first project I've got is to get chapter seven ready to post. Or ... well, is it chapter seven or is it the Interlude? I can't even remember anymore ... I'm pretty sure chapter seven comes before the interlude, so I'll have to get that ready to be posted.

That's another issue. I need to work out whether or not I need another beta reader, and if I do, who to go to. Because I don't want to have to start all over with a new beta who hasn't read my previous work, but I also don't want to post unbeta'd chapters. The fact of the matter is, I might have to. 

None of this is stuff that I should be focussing on right now. I've got other things to do, homework being the chief thing, and I need to get on it. I really want to spend this winter finishing "Seas of Green." I'd like to be completely done by the time summer rolls around, though I know that's probably not a possibility. At any rate, I'd like it done before school starts next year, so that the only thing I really have to focus on is original work, which doesn't have a deadline. (Not that I meet self-imposed deadlines for fanfic, but you feel less guilty if you put aside an original project for a while than if you put aside fanfic which has a reader following.)

Okay, this entry is really done now. I swear. 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Lately I've been getting inspiration to write an original short story that takes place in Scotland. Very random, I know, but I'd like to write this.

Unfortunately, I am so absolutely dead lately because of the taxing of real life that I can't actually sit down and write anything creative.

Though my creativity has been stirring around lately. I had to write a research paper for English, and after I got the first couple of crappy drafts done, the creative juices suddenly started resurfacing. This is a very good thing. 

I'm not promising anything as far as actual material any time soon, simply because the next three weeks are going to be absolutely, hellishly insane. But I am starting to get an urge to write again, and I am starting to feel as if I could pick up the pen again soon. I just have to get my real life under control before I can manage to do that.

Just thought I should update with a more visable timeframe for writing ... it's been so hard to get myself motivated for anything lately, and considering the amount of schoolwork I've got, that's really not good. So writing is on hold until the end of the next three weeks, which will go by really quickly.

At least, I hope they do.

~Psykiapa
 
 
 
 
 
 

Okay, yeah, I know. I'm a terrible person. I haven't written anything since I finished "Stuck." Gah! So terrible! But honestly, I've been so busy lately that I've really had no time. Schoolwork and marching band are sapping pretty much all of my creative energy, and now I'm working set, so I have even less time.

This is okay. Really, it is. The only goal I want to reach right now is to finish "Seas of Green" by the time I leave for college (which is at least a year away), and I'm about halfway done with the fic. I know I'm being absolutely terrible to anyone who wants to actually read the damn thing, but right now I'm looking at it more as a study in finishing a fic than gaining a fanfic following. Which, let's face it, isn't going to happen. And real life does prevail over writing. I swear it.

But "Seas of Green" will be finished. It will. Because if it doesn't get finished, I've only proved to myself that it's impossible for me to finish anything. And with a trilogy in the works, that's not so good.

That's pretty much all I wanted to post. Eventually, I will be posting all of what's published of "Seas of Green" here, because I'm no longer using vivid_november. Though that username is so freaking awesome that I have to use it somehow. Hmn, how could I possibly use an extra journal? I must think on this one ...

Anyway, I'm out.

~Psykiapa

 
 
 
 
 
 
Title: Stuck
Author: Psykiapa
Word Count: 4,067
Genre: Romance/Humor
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: Harry and Blaise are stuck in a rut. Hermione has not had a relationship since she broke up with Ron two years ago. Harry decides to find Hermione a match, and Hermione realizes that perhaps Blaise is a little too close for comfort. What happens next is, at best, a comedy of errors that follows the lives of four characters. SS/HG, H/B!B
Author's Note: Okay, last installment! Again, I apologize for spamming f-lists.

 
 
 
 
 
 
Title: Stuck
Author: Psykiapa
Word Count: 3,132
Genre: Romance/Humor
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: Harry and Blaise are stuck in a rut. Hermione has not had a relationship since she broke up with Ron two years ago. Harry decides to find Hermione a match, and Hermione realizes that perhaps Blaise is a little too close for comfort. What happens next is, at best, a comedy of errors that follows the lives of four characters. SS/HG, H/B!B
Author's Note: Okay, here's part two. Oh, and I apologize for the non-beta'd-ness of this: I couldn't get a PI beta before the deadline. Sorry!

 
 
 
 
 
 
Title: Stuck
Author: Psykiapa
Word Count: 3,771
Genre: Romance/Humor
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: Harry and Blaise are stuck in a rut. Hermione has not had a relationship since she broke up with Ron two years ago. Harry decides to find Hermione a match, and Hermione realizes that perhaps Blaise is a little too close for comfort. What happens next is, at best, a comedy of errors that follows the lives of four characters. SS/HG, H/B!B
Author's Note: Okay, yeah. So I'm definitely going to have to post this non-beta'd, and in several entries. Sorry for the spam! Internet Exploder wouldn't let me upload 30 pages in one go. Not my fault.

 
 
 
 
 
 
No goal for this week. Too tired, too much to do. And I've got writer's block.

I'm almost there. I got someone to beta "Stuck" and brit-pick it, so I'm on the verge of posting it. I'd like it if the person I contacted from Perfect Imagination would get back to me and I could get her input, but she hasn't contacted me thus far and so I doubt she will.

So I'm not writing anything unless it just comes to me. Which, right now, it hasn't.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Alright, so I haven't done nearly as much as I was hoping I would. Granted, I had known that I wouldn't get to actually writing until today, but oh well.

Typing up chapter seven can wait until I have enough words to fullfill the PS Summer Challenge requirements, so writing is definitely more important today than that. I did post chapter 6 of "Seas of Green" at TPP, and I think I might have two more betas for the really long short story. They haven't emailed me back yet, but that's okay, because I bumped the due date up two weeks. So I have time to get it beta-read, which is VERY GOOD.

Still haven't found a better title for it. Might just shorten it to "Stuck," but that would irritate me. Oh well.

And I do actually know where I'm going with "On Marriage, Nervous Conditions, and the Weasley Clan." Just ... exactly how to get from where I stopped to the end is really throwing me for a loop. I have a vague idea, but I wish the vague idea would iron itself out a little more.

On the other hand, I know exactly how "Break Away" will be structured. I might just write that one, though I would rather post "On Marriage ..." first, because it's the humorous of the two. Well ... humorous as much as I get funny and clever. It's lighter, at least. I'm definitely in more of a "Break Away" mood today, so I'll probably just write that, and hope to finish "On Marriage ..." tonight.

Okay, so I've got a game plan. This is good.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I'm absolutely exhausted right now, so I'm keeping this short.

Finished the short story and posted "Triad." Not my best work, but it helped me get closer to the word goal.

This week:

1. Finish "On Marriage, Nervous Conditions, and the Weasley Clan"
2. Write "Break Away"
3. Get someone to beta "Stuck, or the Beneficial Side Affects of Being in a Rut"
4. Figure out a better title for short story than the one mentioned in number 3
5. Type up chapter 7 of "Seas of Green"
6. Post chapter 6 of "Seas of Green" at TPP, because I completely flaked on that one omg.

Here's hoping I can manage to finish all of that ...

~Psykiapa
 
 
 
 
 
 
Huzzah! I have finished the short story!

It's clocking in at 10,980 words and 33 pages, but it's done, and I'm soooooo happy!

Now all I need to do is edit it, have it beta'd, and post it!

Ohmygosh, I can't believe it's actually done.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Maybe it's just the mood I'm in lately, but I haven't been able to get any further on the short story I was writing.

I have, however, started a pair of companion short stories and am about halfway through one of them. They're basically of the same theme, but very different moods. Like alternate universes of one another ... if that makes sense.

I honestly have no idea how this is happening. Normally I'm all up for writing longer works, but these days all my plotbunnies have been short stories. Haven't got much further on "Seas of Green," but I have been writing, which I suppose is a good thing. Hopefully with these two short stories I'll be reaching the goal for the PS Summer Challenge, because that would be awesome.

I kind of feel guilty about abandoning "The Bone Ring," but ... I need to finish "Seas of Green" and I really need to work on my short stories. Because seriously, I've never been truly happy with one of my short stories. They're getting better in construction, but ... yeeeah. If I keep writing them, they'll only get better. And it's much easier to get known through short stories and then novels than it is to try to publish a novel right off the bat. And it's easier to finish short stories.

I've also been vascillating between incredibly upbeat  work and incredibly dark and brooding work. One minute, I can't think of writing something light, the next I can't stand my dark work.

I think I'm going to go for a run tonight (yes, I've decided to start running!) and mull this over. Because seriously, you would think that I'd be able to sort out my moods. Or maybe I'm just destined to deal with this duality.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Title: Triad
Word Count: 785
Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: After the death of a lover, Harry and Blaise attempt to find him again.
Author's Note: Okay, this is ... interesting. I'm attempting to write in 2nd person, and this is really an experiment in style for me. Any and all comments are very, very welcome.

 
 
 
 
 
 
Okay, I didn't manage to post this yesterday, mainly because I was incredibly busy.

Band camp has started again, and school will be starting in three weeks, and so putting out a lot of words is going to be difficult.

Last week while I was on vacation I managed to write through the Interlude, and I'm pretty happy with it. We'll see where that stands when I go back to edit it, but oh well. I didn't type up all of chapter 7, mainly because when I got back I was being a lazy bum and started reading a very, very, very good book. And I have homework that I really need to finish. Sad, I know, but I have to outline 90 more pages in my textbook by the end of summer.

The name of the game for this week is finish the short story for the PS Summer Challenge. I wrote a weird little 3-page thing the other night, and I'll post that because I'm still going to need the words, but I'm not too sure how I feel about it. I was experimenting with 2nd person, and that's a perfect perspective for one of the plot bunnies that's been running through my head recently. I don't know how post-able it is, but oh well.

So, I'll try to get that up, and at least the first part of the short story. I might just have to post it all as one big thing, because really, it is a short story. I might have to post it non-beta'd too, though I'll post the beta'd version later and on other sites.

Hmn, what else is going on? Not much. After I get enough words to fulfill the requirements for the PS Summer Challenge, I'm going to focus on finishing SoG. I don't know how long it will take me before I post chapter 7, but it might be a while. Right now I'm just focusing on writing the damn thing, but hopefully I can get chapter 7 up before too long.

That's all.

So for this week:

1. Finish Short Story
2. Go through the weird thing I wrote a couple of nights ago and get it ready for posting.

Yeah, short list, but I'll be incredibly busy.

~Psykiapa
 
 
 
 
 
 
I think that's what week I'm on; I have no idea.

Anyway, my writer's hiatus is over, and now it's time to get back to work.

I think this week I really need to finish writing the Interlude and type up chapter 7 of SoG so I can start spot-checking it before sending it over to my beta. It would be great to finish "Stuck" as well, but I can't be sure on that one. I'm going on vacation, and I probably won't be able to write as much as I have other weeks. Plus, "Stuck" is on the compy, so there you have it.

I know, it's pretty simple, but I really need to get this Interlude done. I try writing it, and everything is just coming out crap. So I'm probably going to re-write the beginning, or at least re-order everything, and then continue from there. The ideas for my original trilogy are really starting to come full-force, but before I write that, I need to prove to myself that yes, I can finish what I start. Therefore, I need to finish SoG. Not to mention that will give me time to research.

So I'm going to really just focus on SoG now. That is, after I've finished some things for the PS Summer Challenge.  I mean really, I set the challenge, so that means I should probably finish it, but that means lots of words need to be written, and I've kind of abandoned "The Bone Ring" for now, so ... yeah. I'll finish "Stuck," post it, and see what my word-count is. Then I might squeeze out some more words on TBR, or I might set in on writing the sequel to "Stuck," which I'm getting ideas for.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I'm taking a bit of a break from writing.

It's just ... I've done so much since the beginning of summer, and I'm feeling a great sense of accomplishment. I'm very happy with where things are at right now, and this break isn't going to be too long, but I think that maybe I'm actually over-doing it. Writing too much, too fast. Quality is completely shot out the window, and while I don't mind writing crap just to get through awkward spots, it's getting hard to fix the crap fast enough.

So I'll take a break until at least Monday.

But that won't stop me from researching!

The Writer's Guide to Everyday Life in Renaissance England: 1485-1645 came in at the library, and it's great liek woah. This is one of the best resources I've ever come across. It is so good that I'm probably going to order it from the independant bookstore downtown, because this is definitely something I would take with me to college. Not only is it a fabulous guide for writing, but it is also amazing as a historical study because of the sheer detail.

I'm also reading HP and the Half Blood Prince again, and will hopefully finish that by Monday. It's interesting reading those books a second time: you catch so many more details.

And after I finish reading that, I can start reading my other book of Celtic Myths. All in all, I'm a maniac for books right now.

So that's that, no harm done, and I'm off to play with my custom mood theme on my personal journal.

~Psykiapa